Endless Winter

It doesn't matter anymore...

Those bright red leaves...

pretty coloured flowers...

the sound of chirping birds~

the fragrance of spring~

it doesn't matter anymore~

All vanished and gone~

no more vivid colours

no more melodies of the trees

blown away, taken by the white white snow

like they were never there before~

buried deep down under the cold icy snow

where it will never be heard or seen~

but each footsteps in the 'once-upon-a-time' garden

will always bring back tears..

Will spring ever be the same again?

It's Friday~ ^^

Just wanna type out random things =)

First of all, i'm so glad that this is friday..... fuh~ at least i can finally rest =)

O&G is really hectic, i'm glad that Dr Saw drilled us for 2 weeks and made us very hardworking. Really appreciate that. unlike medicine lol~ at least we get to sit down longer =)

Glad that i was able to present BST today... at least i can relax and do my CWU today =) haih~

After class, Terrence, jess, kim and i went to the OT. We saw 2 C-section. that was our first time >.<

The first lady, her os was 7cm and could't dilate anymore so LSCS was performed. There was blood lost of about 1.5 L during the operation. Next, fresh blood bleeding per vagina of about 1 L. @.@ total up, there's like about 2.5L~ tat's like so much!!! she had post partum haemorrhage secondary to uterine atony >.<

The next case was post term pregnancy. Her baby's suppose to be delivered on the 30th November. Thank goodness there wasn't so much blood loss.. maybe about 350ml only. according to Kim, she's very fierce. Her new born child is very different from other babies. She kept frowning and showing her sad face =P most new born don't. That's sooooooo cute XD just like her mother. LoL

So that's the end of my story... you know, there's many ladies out there who rather opt for C-section than vaginal delivery becos they thought that the latter is more painful... before this, i also tot that C-section is not so complicated and painless.. but mana tau, the sight of the operation is more painful and sometimes there can be complications like large amount of blood loss which is very scary and life threatening

Music

It's been a long time...
it's been a while...
the river in me was dried..
now it's flowing...
It's been a long time i haven open up my voice and really sing
it felt so good..
after a year...
now another song is born~ =)

珊瑚海

Chorus: (Translation)

Turning around to leave, (You have something to say but remained speechless), unable to say it's over

The love between a seagull and a fish is only an accidental occurrence

Differences had always existed in (the love you gave) our love (we can't go back)

The dust that gathers in the wind (ends up) accumulating to pain

Turning around and leave, (can't say it's over), unable to say it's over

An azure coral sea, a missed momentary paleness

Right from the beginning (you and me both) were not mature and frank enough (shouldn't)

The passion had not changed, (your) smile cannot be forced

Love is buried deep within the coral sea




>.<

25th November 2010

Today... haih... really make my heart pump so fast... lotsa dosage of adrenaline >.< made me so tired today... palms all sweaty due to anxiety... (was late twice =.=", crappy day~)

Glad that today's over...

Today was the first time of my life watching a birth of a baby boy...

Twas amazing. i'm speechless but full of joy..

wonderful experience indeed. =)

It happened so fast...~

I wonder, how is his life gonna be. How will he look like in the next few years? Wad would his personality be like? How is his family like? wad is his future gonna be like?

Well then, i wish you the best of luck, baby... congrats for making your way into this world, there's gonna be lots of obstacles ahead of you.



more than 6 babies were born today >.<

Human Beings

We all are the same despite of out status, age, gender, height, body weight, face or wadever there is...

We have the same body. All of us have eyes, nose, mouth, 2 upper and lower limbs.

We should be kind to one another and forgive one who does a stupid mistake.

Just because of your high position which causes everyone to salute you, why must you think of yourself highly like a king and step on one's head who is a human like you and did a stupid mistake. Why are chances not given? Instead, you gave such a heavy punishment.

Humans are not perfect, and they will never be. There is always a thing called human error, right? You and I are never made perfect in this world.

I just hope there can be a change, but i doubt that there won't.

Hoping that we can survive in our future jobs and not give up in life. (esp as HOs >.<)

Broken Fairytale

Fairytale is something that never exists but it exists in one who believes in it.

It's as if living as 2 persons in different places.

It's like a realm that causes you to be lost deeper and deeper.

It's a magical and wonderful world that no one knows.

Once awake from a deep sleep, you can never hide from reality.

Realizing the fact that this is reality, the fairytale that was once alive in you fades away slowly...

And one day, the warmth and comfort of it will disappear, leaving you with just plain memories.

One day when a child grows up, he or she may recall his or her memory of the special fairytale and smile at the thought of it...

The end.

November in Sibu

Dunno why... i just feel like writing something... but there's nothing in my mind. >.<
Let me write a summary for the last few months

Things on Earth are never fair. Time is also never fair.

The truth hurts more than lies.

Time flies by so fast like the water that flows tru the tap.

Will recurring dreams of someone's death manifest some time later?

Why do humans never realize that they are killing themselves slowly? Do they even know that?

I wish i can imagine being someone else and feel their different lifes. Each time i see someone on the streets or hospital or somewhere, i wish to know their life.

I wish time is reversible, i want my family back 10 years ago, when my parent are young and healthy. I hate to see them growing old =(

The way to live in an island is by the company of my best friends and companions.

Clinical exams always exhaust me. I've no affinity to food. Side effects are diarrhea and lower abdominal pain.

Never take a friend for granted and try not to be too sensitive in friendship or else both will get hurt.

Sometimes, you should look at yourself into the mirror and not boast about yourself. You're making a clown out of yourself. Stop being so egoistic, it's so annoying.

It was before everyone was so kind and loving, but now, some "turned malignant" and steal other people's chances.

I hate it when that someone is a double face. Backstabbing, being a devil behind my back and being an angel in front of my eyes.

It's hard when you don have enuff resources. You'll just have to trouble others or go on with the hard way by yourself.

I wish i wasn't so dumb and blind during my postings... >.<

To everyone: I'm sorry for all the hurtful things I've said before. Please forgive me.

It's better late than never

With so little knowledge, am I able to survive throughout my journey? it is enuff to treat humans out there.

I want know, EveRyThiNg that happen around me.

How is everyone?

Expect the unexpected

Have faith in God, He'll always be there for you.

Life is so fragile, our life can be just taken in a blink of an eye. Appreciate those around you.

Learning not to be too sensitive.

I'm thirsty for music. It has been a long time...

Wad's gonna happen tomoro?

Soon our time in Sibu is gonna end. I'll try to appreciate everything here and make many memories.

I hope.. I hope.. i pass =(

That's all that i wanna express... short summary of my life and thoughts in Sibu